I know, how creative I am to write a post about Thankfulness on Thanksgiving; but hey. It's just a no brainer. But, as I try to compose this post all I keep thinking about is that I really don't need a specific day to remind me of all for which I am thankful.
I don't need to sit around the table eating turkey to be reminded of this any more than I need to witness traumas and disasters in the world or have my own life shatter beyond recognition to remind me what to be thankful for with every breath I take.
Each day when my eyes open I say a prayer of thanks and ask for a small parcel of grace to make it through the day. A parcel the size of a sugar cube, that's all I need. Because even in being thankful and appreciative life is still not without struggle and stress with things that range from a nuisance to angst, from worrisome to fear, from annoying to heartbreaking.
I chose appreciation. Every day I chose it, but it's easy to lapse, to stray, to drift. I have to remind myself to chose it and live it even when other ways of feeling tug and battle for my very soul. I choose it because the days of having this choice might be numbered. I chose it because my girls are growing older and with that, things will surely change. They will never be so inextricably in love with me as they are right now.
I chose it because CB's life will likely not be a long one and this reality is the last thought I carry into sleep and the source of the butterflies in my stomach when I walk into her room each morning.
I choose appreciation because I know what it felt like to live under an iron curtain of profound unhappiness and that because of my choices I dwell in happiness now. I'm aware of how fragile this state can be so I am forever thankful, grateful, appreciative.
I don't need to make my "30 Days of Thanks" list. I live and breathe and sing them every single solitary day. I see them reflected back to me in the eyes of those I love. They fill my entire heart 365 days of the year.
Happy Thanksgiving from my brood to yours.
Hope your Thanksgiving was a goofy as ours!