chronic static encephalopathy..., psychomotor retardation, severe ....status epileptus... generalized tonic clonic seizures...
Blah blah blah. The most painful parts of our lives whittled down to three pages of black ink on a crisp white page. And while it tells the story, it tells hardly anything at all.
The report wrapped up with the summary of genetic testing, which I read with more care:
Angelman's testing - negative
No detectable mutation in the coding regon of the UBE3A gene.
No detectable point of mutation in the coding region of the SLC9A6 gene
Rett Syndrome - negative
DNA sequence anyalsis and deletion/duplication testing of the ARX, MECP2 and the CDKL5 genes did not demonstrate any anomalies.
It was this line that stood out to me though, like the trace images you see after you stare at something for too long and then close your eyes and still see it there in the darkness:
Therefore, the etiology of the disease phenotype in this patient remains unknown.
Which leaves only the guilt of what I might have done wrong sitting in the chair of an explanation.